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Filth grew up under numerous unfortunate circumstances. His father never interacted with him as a
father should—in fact, they had little to no communication on the whole. Filth was forced to live in a rather uncaring
home and was subject to ridicule because of his stammer; he was called “Monkey”
because of the way he talked. At one
point, he was even beaten. When he was
in his late teens, his schoolmasters accused him of being homosexual because of
his brotherly bond with his good friend Pat.
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21 provides an insightful glimpse into Filth’s defense mechanism that has
helped him put these terrible memories aside for his entire life. Gardam writes, “Filth had always said—of his
Cases—‘I am trained to forget.’ ‘Otherwise,’ he said, ‘how could I function?’ Facts, memories, the pain of life—of lives in
chaos—have to be forgotten” (21).
Granted, as Gardam explains, Filth is a lawyer who has consistently used
this purposeful forgetting when dealing with cases in which he sends innocent
men to be executed. The guilt would be
too much for anyone to bear, and Filth—who has a very high reputation in
society and cannot risk distorting his respectable image—is no exception.
However,
not only does Filth’s intentional repression of memory apply to his law career,
but it is a defense mechanism he employs to wash away the horrible memories
from his youth as well. Of course,
anyone who has suffered under the same circumstances as Filth may do the same
if he or she does not have the gumption to embrace his or her past. As mentioned, the other element riding on
Filth’s shoulders is his position in society.
People hold Filth in a very high regard.
Gardam’s novel begins by describing how others view filth, and page 17
tells of how “his eyes and mind alert, he was a delightful man. He had always been thought so. A man whose distinguished life had run
steadily and happily” (17-18). With such
an untarnished reputation at stake, Filth would be mortified if anyone knew
about his shameful past. Thus, he
attempts to bury every depressing memory from existence.